Chrissy Teigen is no longer sober.
John Legend‘s wife got extremely candid about her current relationship with alcohol in a new Instagram post on Thursday, in which she shared a selfie of herself holding up a copy of Holly Whitaker‘s book Quit Like a Woman, a book that inspired her sobriety journey years ago. Holly was the guest on her Self-Conscious podcast episode out the same day, and it prompted the Cravings cookbook author to get real with her followers. The 39-year-old explained in the caption:
“Oh man. I’ve been dreading today’s podcast release since the moment we shot it. And that has nothing to do with my incredible guest – @holly. Holly Whitaker changed my life, changed my perspective and changed how I view the f**king beast that is alcohol.”
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Then came the revelation…
“But to have to admit to all of you: I let it back into my life. to let a lot of you down, oh I feel it deeply. I was so proud every time one of you told me on the street that holly and I made you want to rethink drinking, reframe drinking. I still am.”
That said, she’s struggling on her sobriety journey right now, she acknowledged:
“The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing. I one hundred percent know I like me better sober. I one hundred percent know I get more done, I absolutely feel better in my body without it. And I am one hundred percent pissed that I can’t be normal and have a cocktail with my husband on vacay without it turning into 8 and feeling like s**t. I’m tired of throwing up on a Tuesday. I don’t wanna feel like I need a shot to talk to a crowd. I hate that the thought of maybe having a drink can consume me some days. So your rational mind is probably like ‘OK THEN STOP, BITCH!’ and god, do I f**king AGREE!”
Sometimes, it’s just not that easy, but she’s not giving up on herself. The mother of four continued:
“All I know is my relationship with the whole process of sobriety (and messing up) has changed for the better. I am deeply aware of where this can go if I let it. I guess my plan right now is to continue to be mindful with it. I can go to a concert sober and have the greatest time ever. I can avoid absinthe at the Ren Faire and be so abbbbsolutely full of joy. Photos of my kid’s birthday parties are no longer me with bleary, sleepy drinking eyes. And I am proud of that. But I still know my relationship with alcohol just isn’t normal and never will be. Thank you for allowing me to figure it out openly in front of you all. Anyhow. This is for all the people who are figuring it out. And to the sober community, god I am still so, so proud of you. Until we meet again “
It takes a lot of courage to be so open and honest about such a vulnerable topic, especially when in the middle of a setback!
If you don’t know, Chrissy first stopped drinking in 2017 and again in 2020. She marked one year sober in 2022 and was so proud of herself at the time, so we know this must be hard. Addictions can be such a struggle!
You also can listen to their full podcast convo (below):
Hopefully Chrissy can figure out a path forward that works best for her and her health!
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If you or someone you know is experiencing substance abuse, help is available. Consider checking out the resources SAMHSA provides at https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline or check out StartYourRecovery.org
[Image via Chrissy Teigen/Instagram]
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