Amber Portwood simply launched a brand new memoir about her life experiences and it’s chock stuffed with some very attention-grabbing revelations.
Teen Mother OG star Amber Portwood is getting up shut and private in her new tell-all ebook, So, You’re Loopy Too? The fact star, 31, revealed she was hiding a secret being pregnant and abortion in 2010 across the time she was arrested for assaulting her ex, Gary Shirley, 35, and that Gary was additionally not the daddy. “When my ex [Gary] and I had damaged up for some time as a result of the preventing was so unhealthy, I used to be hanging out with a heroin addict and I unintentionally bought pregnant,” Amber wrote within the memoir.
She continued by noting she knew she couldn’t care for one more youngster, nevertheless she was nonetheless hesitant about going by means of with an abortion. “Not with the ability to deal with one thing and having to terminate a life have been worlds aside for me,” she shared. “I lastly had an abortion, nevertheless it was devastating to me. Once more, I have no idea why I made the selections I made throughout this time in my life.”
Amber additionally revealed that she was coping with an opioid habit on the time of filming the primary season of the present, sharing that her drug use contributed to her determination to in the end undergo with the abortion. “I used to be on medicine and I didn’t know what I used to be doing half the time,” she wrote. “I had nightmares about abandoning my unborn youngster. I cried uncontrollably for weeks afterward. I didn’t sleep and I misplaced lots of weight.”
She went on to say she heard the one that bought her pregnant sadly handed away just lately, inflicting her to once more get emotional in regards to the expertise. “This information made me cry though I had not seen or talked to him in years,” she acknowledged. “I knew he was an addict and never lengthy for this earth, however we conceived a toddler collectively so I at all times felt a reference to him.”
The mother-of-two went on to disclose she bought pregnant once more after getting launched from jail in Dec. 2013, though that being pregnant led to miscarriage. “After I miscarried after falling pregnant by a boy I dated for just a few months proper after jail, it shook me, though I had no enterprise having a child with anybody else at the moment in my life,” she wrote, including how she remembered “making an attempt to fish the factor out of my bathroom for a very long time.”
“I needed to bury it and mourn its loss however I couldn’t get to it,” she shockingly revealed. “It’s was a type of moments in my life that I replay in my head time and again: me sobbing and making an attempt to fish one thing out of a bathroom for some inexplicable cause. I swear demise simply follows me round.”